I wanted to be a developer, and create the kind of games that I wanted to play. Now, I just want to survive.
I feel that there is some world that others were brought into, that I was left too long to believe that I am a part of it, and I suffered a lot, trying to have the normalcy that others take for granted.
This is not my world, I don’t belong in it. My goal is to become independent enough to not have to worry about other humans exploiting me at all, or die trying.
Stop feeling like you are dying? That is the wrong attitude. You need to say you like dying actually! You will show them, you will show them all true dying! Then run hard, and die harder!
Some months later, you will ask “why am I not dying!?! This does not feel like dying at all!”, and then you will run for longer and faster, hoping to feel like you are dying again.
EDIT: Knowing your VO2 max helps, carbomaxxing before running is also a good idea.
RE?
Is it Weskin time yet? That would certainly solve unemployment.
I can’t remember exactly, but I had a fuckton of really awful nightmares. One of my less terrifying experiences look like: turning on a tap to wash the hundreds of cockroaches crawling on my face, only for more to come out of the tap, and some Kerrigan lookalike phasing through walls and absorbing anything organic.
I was being very brave, trying to be perfectly stoic, and not showing any signs of pain, as the drill went deeper and deeper into my tooth. Something was VERY wrong, and the pain just keept getting exponentially worse, and I didn’t know if it would end at all, I just stayed quiet somehow until the operation was complete.
That experience was so horrible, I stopped being brave about almost anything after that. Every time I’d hear a drill nearby from someone doing home renovation nearby, I will grind my teeth and cringe. I had a syncope after being give an anesthetic, as the needle pushed me over the edge from the dread I was feeling (and again, hiding).
There’s also drowning in your own blood from reflux, wondering if I fucked up the wound where my wisdom tooth was removed, and the bleeding would just not stop, and I was getting basically waterboarded every few seconds, because the blood made me nauseous.
Drinking vinegar, realizing I fucked up, then thinking I’m going to die from it.
I guess that’s it.
EDIT: Cat hitting the gate, making me think someone was coming when I was uh…indisposed is one xD
That’s what happens when you take ideology and philosophy over reason.
He might have lead to Boomers being such psychopaths, including the later greatest villians.
He DID do it on purpose too!
He did also have a good side sort of. He also did some good, there are people who only did pure evil.
Well, I used to blame all of humanity’s ills on the dark tethrad.
Until I realized what a bastard the average person is.
Idk if Powell is alive. Ayn Rand, but she is just a fool with a strange philosophy, she can’t be responsible for what the morons did with it.
Idk if whoever founded Mossad is still alive, but they sure sabotaged and sent backwards the entire world.
Whoever took advantage of Jesus delusions, and convinced him he is the messiah, leading to a religion that would be used to stop people from taking on science.
My phone, my wallet, more germs than your average bioweapons lab.
EDIT: Forgot the pack of tissues, because I’m always sick.
TIIIIIIIIIME
Anyone with wisdom would want that.
You can do anything with time.
Wind it back, wind it forward, generate infinite energy, change all things, fix all things (backwards time manipulation), learn how to do anything.
And the best part: no other superpower needed, no omnipotence, no omniscience.
Just your mortal hands, and time.
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It was really hard for me not to claim I’m a minor on Lemmy NSFW, I knew I should not do it, after getting naked on there, would cause TOO MUCH chaos.
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You know what they are going to be saying to the Stickholders once they get wiped from Europe?
I-ran.
Yep! Don’t think I have a choice anymore, I made the mistake of pulling a cat onto my bed to pet him, and now he hops on and I just let him.
Nothing better than a cat purring happily as soon as it hops onto your bed.
I don’t see humans doing that, all humans do is get angry at me for being slow. Tf I need you for.
What could possibly be worth my predicted lifetime worth of earnings?!?
I’m guessing the ripoff Nintendo console they have. We used to get these modified Sega Master systems that we plugged Nintendo chips into…was fun for the time I guess.
Nothing like abducting soldiers and tanks in order to deploy them against another as an UFO.
Also, no, he does not snore. But both cats have a tendency to do this, and one of them will actually walk into my room, mrrrw, jump onto my bed, and start purring.
The sheet is electric and heated, so they steal my bed often.
ePSXe is still awesome for PS1 games, even as our computers get more bloated and shittier.