Beth

7-8 unless perimenopause is acting out

Dilated all the way to have baby. My body decided that wasn’t for us, so I got the c-section too! I’ve broken bones and it feels like nothing compared to that.

10 or so I use daily. 20 or so others I reference occasionally.

If this happened suddenly, I would gently monitor but not panic and jump to the worst conclusion. I have a good relationship with my kids. They have different ways of expressing feelings like this and I’m familiar with them because I know them as the people they are. I’m protective of them, of course, but I also try to give them some room.

Every single time I sat down from doing a chore someone sought my attention. I did not experience a moment of peace. So that, I reckon.

Yeah I’m a monster

Walkie, phone, pens, band aids, counter, whatever I found on the floor…whichever pocket has room.

I would seek a new practitioner and cite this as the reason. Given the track record of these tools, I personally question the judgement of someone using them in clinical documents and even creating “temporary” recordings. Therefore, I would question their judgement and their ability to manage their caseloads if they feel this is needed. I can see this being disappointing after going through all the paperwork. Sorry you’re having to deal with that.

If this is how my children felt, I would consider myself a failure. It’s not acceptable in a healthy relationship that the other party feel fear. For children, parents have even more of an obligation of trust and security. Anything less is neglectful and perhaps even abusive.

Johnny booth

I’ve seen just a handful of “I know it’s a comment chain from Reddit, but….” posts.

1. Buy the house for my kids I’ve been saving for
2. Set us all a reasonable allowance and a rainy day fund so we never have to worry
3. Find a way to donate the majority to underserved families of children with disabilities

Mom here.

Plan B: Yes …and…!

Go to the health dept/gyno and get tested. If you haven’t had an HPV vaccine you’ve also been exposed (and exposing others). HPV can cause cancer, which develops slowly with no symptoms. Make sure you get routine paps. Get on birth control, ASAP.

And yes I’d say you have things to process, being as you’re doing this knowing it will feel bad and scary later. Therapy is expensive and all, but I’d look into why you might do things to yourself that are clearly self-sabotaging.

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Realized I’d dropped a cup and band size and that’s why my bras all felt terrible. New bras yay! My wallet cries, but it feels nice?

Watching people make connections.

It’s already been working like garbage lately. Wonder if this is related.

Here’s what I do: I work in a field where it’s never ending. Yesterday four people were looking for me while I had a priority. I focused on my priority and I directed them to remote ways to contact me. I put them on my calendar. I have 3 spreadsheets regarding different things to do this month, week, daily. I do my daily priorities and chip away at the spreadsheets in downtime. I never finish. I also don’t think about it for a single second after I leave the building, and I also don’t feel bad. The reason for this is being a human being, only one person, and it can wait but enjoyment and rest will not. YOLO.

I really don’t. I feel like what I consume and enjoy is a reflection of me.

I think your brain would have to rewire and maybe some heavy therapy but idk.

Just being comfortable and peaceful when nothing is evidently wrong. People taking things for granted bothers me because I can’t. Permanent fight or flight.