I had a weird thing happen that kind of fucked me up. I haven’t cried or been able to cry since. Lost a close relative and I saw another explain what happened (it was particularly sad). When he was explaining he started to begin tearing up but swallowed and stone faced. He finished explaining and I haven’t been able to cry since. For clarity, I’ve never had a problem showing emotions or crying. I used to cry at inspirational stuff or sad stuff. Its been around six months now. So when’s the last time you cried? Maybe hearing some stuff will loosen me up.
The last time I completely lost it was when my dog died eight years ago. Before that would have been during my divorce, several times, back in 2010. And, just two years before that, when my mom died.
Pet loss is a uniquely brutal thing.