I wouldn’t worry about it. If you were handed money and became a billionaire you wouldn’t turn what you read about regarding those files. People with certain proclivities such that they prioritise their greed as to accumulate so much wealth and power above anything else have personality traits that align with those abhorrent behaviours. Or are raised by people with strong personality traits that then are passed on. Handing someone a large amount of drugs randomly does not turn them into an addict automatically. Obviously it is way more complex than that because personalities are complex but most people try to do good by their community but there are exceptions and unfortunately those are the people selected for when it comes to wealth and power distribution.

As a teenager I loved to read Lovecraft. It was a way to learn English as a nice side effect because it isn’t my native language but that also obscured the appalling racism from me which lead to disappointment when I found out later.

We have Dies Irae from Verdi’s Requiem. Not that it gets played much anymore since we are now older and dull.