Am I supposed to tell them I really really wanna kms right now?

Yes. If you don’t, they can’t help you.

Nah, they’d lock me up lmfao

Not if you are honest about it. Talking openly about it instead of just doing it is a good sign that you might be ready to fix stuff.

Can’t even tell my mom cuz she’d get mad at me…

That’s not normal and not healthy. Tell your therapist. They might be able to find a way to get you out of an unhealthy environment, at least for a while.

Not me but someone close to me:

• There is a difference between “ready for therapy” and “ready for change”. Some people will sit in therapy for years but never see much progress because they are so stuck in doing or thinking something that holds them back.
• Your therapist will tell you things that don’t make sense to you. Listen to them anyway. If they tell you something that seems impossible, don’t ignore it, ask how you can do that. If they tell you something that seems useless, try it anyway, then report back if it doesn’t work and be open for an explanation for why it didn’t work.
• Be brutally honest. Your therapist won’t be able to help you unless you tell them exactly how bad your situation is. If you spend 90% of your day in bed and tell your therapist you’re doing okay, they won’t be able to correctly identify what kind of help you need.
• It is completely normal to miss some of your goals. Therapy takes time and nobody will judge you if you take longer than others. Figuring out how much you should push yourself and when you need a break is hard. Either way, don’t be angry at yourself when something doesn’t work out. As long as you tried, you’re fine.
• Most of your problems are in your head. That doesn’t mean they aren’t real. It doesn’t mean they don’t hurt. It doesn’t mean they aren’t difficult to overcome. It just means that the only person who can solve them is you. A therapist can explain how to solve them but they can’t change your thoughts or your habits.

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Night. Getting out of bed in time for work is hard enough. Showering in the morning would mean I need to get up even earlier.

It’s probably mostly a matter of getting used to the way Darktable does things and where it puts certain controls.

That’s what Camera Raw’s basic tab looks like (not my screenshot, I’m at the linux laptop right now). It has most of what I need for a photo to look “okay” before I dive into the other tabs for more in-depth edits. I’m sure Darktable has equivalent functions to all of those (they’re very basic after all) but at least with the default UI presets, I need to look through many different tabs and modules with unfamiliar names to find them.

Then there’s warnings like “White balance applied twice”. Apparently I’m not allowed to use the white balance sliders because the color calibration module already applies white balance? But that module doesn’t provide an intuitive way to select color temperature and tint?

I’m sure I could get used to all of that. But right now I don’t have the time or energy to learn a completely new editing workflow from scratch. Many open source tools suffer from programmer UI syndrome (I’m allowed to say that, I’m a programmer myself). They do everything the lead maintainer needs them to do but you often need to be intimately familiar with the software’s inner workings to understand what each control in the UI does. I don’t want to think about the differences between “linear Bradford (ICC v4)”, “non-linear Bradford” and “CAT16 (CIECAM16)” color calibration formulas, especially not when I’ve set my UI to “workflow: beginner”. I just want to make my photo a tiny bit warmer. Give me sensible defaults and put the super detailed settings out of the way until I need them.

I switched my laptop to Arch a bit over a year ago but my desktop is still on Windows 11.

The main thing that’s holding me back is the lack of raw photo editing software that matches my workflow. I’ve tried RawTherapee, Darktable, RapidRAW and a couple of others. So far, everything was either cumbersome to use, was missing important features or had suboptimal performance. With dozens if not hundreds of candidates, even one more minute of editing time per photo can quickly add up. Many of my gigs are event photography and my clients often want at least the roughly edited previews within 24-48 hours.

If any of you knows a tool that accurately replicates the UX, feature set and performance of (ideally) Adobe Camera Raw or (not so ideally) Lightroom, you’d make me the happiest photography nerd on the planet. Bonus points if it correctly imports existing development settings in case I need to re-edit or re-export older photos.

PSA: if you recommend I use GIMP, like so many before you did, I will block you. GIMP is not a raw editor and it can’t even open most raw formats without help from one of the tools I mentioned above.

The wayback machine has a snapshot of my personal Age of Empires 2 and Star Wars Galactic Battlegrounds fan site from October 2002. Digging around a bit, the site and its forum must have been online since at least August of the same year. (Edit: if you dig around long enough you’ll probably find forum accounts from 2001 or even older but those old phpBB forums usually only have a fraction of their threads preserved).

The oldest thing that’s still in use is a forum account from September 2003. Last post with that account was two weeks ago. The community is not as active as it used to be but we still do in-person meetups at least twice a year.

People who post Ask Lemmy threads then delete them (or their whole account) a day later.

Mastodon does in fact not render markdown from other instances. They get converted to HTML by the sender instance.

Hopping on a train alone for a couple of hours has been my default mode of transportation since long before I was 18. Mostly to visit friends so I didn’t have to worry about a place to stay overnight so if you don’t have that, maybe start out with a day trip.

That’s the universal human experience. Listen to every marginally famous person and they will tell you that a single negative comment feels like it weighs more than 100 positive ones. Then factor in that people who disagree feel compelled to voice their opinion while those who agree often silently nod to themselves and move on. So the 100 positive comments are likely representative of 500 people who agree but don’t say anything.

So far, you seem to be doing well. Don’t let a couple of the haters get to you.

Of course, if a pattern appears of many comments criticizing the same thing, then you can think about if there’s something you should change about your behavior. But even then, the change should come from your own realization that you want to change something, not from a desire to appeal to the faceless mass of terminally online weirdos.

From your other posts, I guess you are around 18 and this is your first long-term relationship. If that’s the case, don’t worry too much about it. Don’t expect your first relationship to last forever. Or your second. Or third. Enjoy what you have for as long as it lasts but don’t be afraid to move on when either of you becomes uncomfortable with it. If you treat every relationship as if it must last forever, you won’t recognize the signs if something develops in the wrong direction and you risk locking yourself into something you don’t want, just because you don’t realize that you have other options.

Breakups hurt like hell but they also help you grow. With each one you learn something about yourself, your life goals and what you like and dislike in a partner. I’m in my late 30s now and if you count everything that lasted longer than a year, I’m in my third long-term relationship right now, with a hand full of shorter ones in between. The longest one lasted for about seven years and ended because we figured out that our plans for the future had changed in a way that no longer fit together. Breaking up was the right choice and maybe we should have done it a bit earlier but at the same time, I’m grateful for every single day we had and regret nothing.

So in short: see where the journey goes. Be open-minded either way. Maybe you’ll stay together for another month, another year or another decade. Enjoy each other for as long as you’re both happy but don’t be afraid of ending things when you’re not.

Pretty much that, yes. I remember stopping for a moment and wondering what had just happened. I was of course aware that I had existed before. Who and where I was. At the same time it felt like all that was vague and distant, like suddenly waking up from a dream.

Realistically, it was probably just an unusually intense doorway effect but the fact that I can still remember it so vividly, even decades later, shows how significant it must have felt to 3-year-old me.

When I was about three years old, I walked down the hallway from my room toward the living room. I remember that even in that moment it felt like I had blacked out halfway through and my brain started working a couple of steps from the living room door. Everything before that is blank, yet I have tons of memories from the weeks and months after that event.

If it hasn’t happened yet, it’s probably just a matter of time until someone creates an NSFW loops instancce.

I have two. Both not the worst in terms of total delay but memorable for being horribly annoying.

1. ICE train from Dortmund to Karlsruhe (Germany) in December 2017. We’d had a couple of centimeters of snow the night before but nothing too drastic… until right after Frankfurt am Main. A railroad switch near Frankfurt am Main Stadion was frozen and could not be operated so we had to stop for over an hour at that tiny station. In the meantime, the beer in the onboard restaurant had run out and some already drunk passengers stole the conductor’s phone to blast the anime music over the train’s speakers and argued who would leave the train to buy more booze. Eventually we had to return to the previous station where dozens of additional passengers boarded. We were confused but got told that ours was the only train that would even attempt the rest of the trip. In the end, we arrived about three hours late.
2. A trip by regional train from Kassel to somewhere near Duisburg (Germany) in September 2021. Should have taken about four hours but due to an unexpected storm and a tree that damaged the overhead lines, the train had to stop in the middle of nowhere. It took 90 minutes just to figure out which taxi company would take us to the next station and a total of eight hours to get to our destination because it was so late at night that at some point no connecting trains were available.

I think OP is not a native speaker. The (implicit) question is probably “Do you agree?”

I finished high school in spring which was a true blessing. I had always been a good student (4th best in my year) but got bullied for being a nerd.

Over the summer, I worked as a programmer for a small game studio, making a Nintendo DS game that got cancelled by the publisher on the day we sent in the last release candidate because they finally noticed that their idea was crap and they should have accepted the changes we had proposed. Didn’t matter, I had already been paid and got a lot of experience out of it.

In October, I started university which was a great chance to make new friends. By now I’ve lost contact with most of them but some are still around and I appreciate them a lot. I was lucky enough to already live close to the university so I could stay at my parents’ house.

Through all of this, I was in the middle of my first serious relationship. My partner moved from across the country to a town just an hour away from me. Being able to see each other more often was amazing but at the same time it made things more complicated. We were constantly struggling with aligning our schedules, couldn’t agree at whose place we should meet and got annoyed when one wanted to meet friends on a day the other would be free. We broke up in 2009 but we’re still good friends.

It was pretty much the peak of a community that I’m still part of today. Apart from long online discussions, we met twice a year for community events with about 60-80 guests who decided that it’s our turn to define what being a grown-up means. These events still exist (the last one was just a few weeks ago) but they’ve gotten smaller and some of that chaotic creativity has been lost forever.

Overall, 2008 may have been the start of one of the best sections of my life. I’ve never had more active friendships at the same time, before or after. I had many of the perks of being an adult without most of the drawbacks. I earned a bit of money and could keep most of it because university is cheap in my country and I didn’t have to pay rent. If I had the chance (and could take a few people that I met later with me), I would probably go back.

Lemmy 1.0 will support scheduled posts

Did we ever get an explanation for that?