I had a weird thing happen that kind of fucked me up. I haven’t cried or been able to cry since. Lost a close relative and I saw another explain what happened (it was particularly sad). When he was explaining he started to begin tearing up but swallowed and stone faced. He finished explaining and I haven’t been able to cry since. For clarity, I’ve never had a problem showing emotions or crying. I used to cry at inspirational stuff or sad stuff. Its been around six months now. So when’s the last time you cried? Maybe hearing some stuff will loosen me up.
The day that my 18 year old cat had to be put down. That morning, I pulled up a video of birds for her to watch, same as most other mornings. And seeing her watching the birds as if nothing was wrong, knowing that it was the last day I would spend with her, that fucking broke me.
Prior to that, I think I hadn’t cried in over 20 years.